Post-Defense Blog Post(with feels)

BEFORE THE DEFENSE

At first, as I watched other people defend over the course of two weeks, I couldn’t help but grow increasingly more anxious although I knew that having a defense didn’t look so bad. I was kind of actually dreading to have my own defense. And then it came.

I didn’t even know I was having my defense last Wednesday until I asked Sir Alfred in my FA AM class with him. It was funny, how I’ve been anticipating and dreading my defense and I was suddenly caught off guard (though not really, since it’s been a long time coming) when he told me.

Though I was nervous as fuck inside, I knew I had to get my shit together because: (1) though I was kind of scared shitless, I had to do it; and (2) I wanted to do it.

I wanted to do it, because as much as it would hurt to get criticized, I wanted to know what others thought about my work. Though I seemed confident and not worried about it, I was generally insecure about whether or not my artwork actually got anything across. My mother would sometimes tell me that she didn’t really get what I was trying to do, in my art or in, well, my course or life in general, and I guess that always made me feel insecure about whether or not I was making sense.

I love my work, and I love what I’m doing. I thought I was okay, and others would often tell me that my work was good and whatnot, but I guess it was hard for me to believe them because I didn’t know if they were saying that just to be nice. The bottom line was, I believed my work was good, but I didn’t know if it really was good, so getting my work critiqued and hearing from the panelists meant a lot  to me.

THE DEFENSE

I kind of expected to get roasted(I guess everyone actually does?)But my panel turned out really nice. Though I was nervous before my defense, when I started doing it, the fear and anxiety were forgotten in favor of just sharing and explaining my work.

After I did, the panelists basically started commenting and asking a few questions(mainly with technicalities), like:

Did I assemble my piece? How much of the work did I get an artisan to do? How far was I from creating my work? How did I go about making the collage? How did I come up with the design for the structure? So is my work focused on drowning?

So basically, I just tried to answered those questions as honestly as I could and shared my process. Some of their comments were:

(1) My title was great. It tied the work together with the kind of reading that I wanted my viewers to have. They said that I did well because it doesn’t hurt to give a hint to prompt the audience to the kind of interpretation you want them to have.

(2) My work was well researched because I researched for the type of kaleidoscope I wanted to create the effect that I wanted. They said that some research can really take you a long way.

(3) They could see how my work was personal. They saw the artist in it, as well as the part of the audience, but at the same time, my work was already separate from me and that it had a certain life of its own.

(4) My thought process, conceptualization and logic made sense.

(5) Perhaps, I can improve my work further by researching on industrial design or product design so that my kaleidoscope can be easier to access or use.

The comments were generally positive, and I was really touched that the panelists liked my work and they expressed that as they kept on commenting what they liked about it. It was a really exhilarating experience for me and I think I gained some self-confidence in myself. The good feeling that I got from my defense experience will definitely keep me going for a long time.

FUTURE ITERATIONS

After the panel, I feel like I really want to pursue this work further in the future. I don’t have any major required alteration based on their comments, but based on their suggestion, I’d like to explore more on the design of the kaleidoscope so that it can become more eye level to a viewer and then perhaps employ a light source at the end so that the images can become much more vibrant. I also want to finally use sealant to secure all the parts together to make it look cleaner in terms of execution. All in all, I hope that I can further improve this artwork in the future!

 

 

 

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Memories underwater are strange: Kaleidoscope installation

Kaleidoscope
Memories under water are
strange. The maya bird chirping away
on the branch of the Acacia tree.
The green mangoes falling to the
pavement of the cobbled
driveway to their two-storey
house. Their family dog tilting
its head to the side as her oblivious
mother tells her that eggplants are
purple and that the yellow sun rises
from the east. Now, she makes out
her best friend’s blurry blue face in
another dimension. Muted calls
can’t touch her here, though she lets
the pads of her toes trace the deep
end. She opens her mouth but she
can’t speak through all the crystal white
bubbles. There are simply too many
broken fragments, of a smile or a
frown, a prism or a beautiful rainbow,
She doesn’t know. She can only imagine
how falling in a five feet pool must feel like.

An artist’s attempt to translate the near death experience of drowning that she experienced during childhood, Memories underwater are strange tries to replicate a life review through the lens of a kaleidoscope, a children’s toy that brings back nostalgic memories of individuals as children.

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Day by Day Progress Reports(Updated)

  1. Saturday, March 25:

I’ve been trying to find resin since last week. Checked hardware stores today, but they also don’t have it.

Hmm, it seems like resin is really hard to find in the Philippines. If I really can’t find it, then I guess I’ll have to order it online. Will scout for resin at the Polymer shop along E.D.S.A tomorrow. I’ll also try to find silicone putty to use as the mold for the resin. Will also have to inquire in Deovir tomorrow for that. I’ll also have to scout for my plexiglass tubing tomorrow. Once I get a size of the fiberglass tubing, I shall then send the measurements for the mirrors I want to my uncle.

In the meanwhile, I’ve been taking photos and trying to collect the items for my object case! So far, I’ll try to confirm with Intermatrix about whether they digitally print on acetate.

2. Sunday, March 26

I researched and asked some people and they said I can buy resin at Polymer Products at EDSA. They are closed today so we’ll check on Monday.

Week 2

3. Monday, March 27

olx

Bought silicone Mold Putty at Deovir. Bought the resin and hardener too at Polymer products at EDSA. I also managed to contact someone from Caloocan who sells Acrylic Glass tubes! Go OLX.

4. Tuesday, March 28

I inquired at intermatrix if they print on acetate but they don’t. I’m trying to see if anyone else in Katipunan does.

3. Wednesday, March 29

Contacted Blessings at UP Diliman. They said they print black and white on Acetate only.

4. Thursday, March 30

Went to UP, Blessings can’t print on Acetate. They referred me to another shop that does!

5. Friday March 31

Collaged my photos. Got them printed. I also started cutting out words from my past readings in literature class.

6. Saturday, April 1

Tested the resin. The ink ran.  I can’t use the resin because the ink on the acetate gets removed. The resulting object casting is dark.

7. Sunday April 2

Plan B. Make the object case acrylic tube too. Contacted the supplier to build me a stand. for the kaleidoscope.

8. Monday, April 3

They said its going to finished at 3 pm!!!

 

Practice Pitching

If there’s one thing I find interesting about this new semester, it’s that a lot of subjects entail final outputs in the form of artworks and projects. After going through the first year of college with those numerous amount of papers, I admit that I’m actually looking forward to making things. But with this excitement, comes the nervousness that creating entails.

As an arts student, I’ve always leaned more on the traditional side of it rather than digital, and I guess that’s because I’ve always been someone who loved to do things hands on and feeling the materials as I go. It’s a given that every single artist wants to create quality work—work that has value, work that makes sense. But how does one know if the work they create is actually effective?

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Welcome!

Hello guys! If it isn’t obvious enough, this is Andrea. Honestly, it’s taken me such a long time to create this website. I’m not a very web savvy person, so I have no qualms to admit that I suck in coding and all of that html-thingymadoos. Nevertheless, I hope you’ll enjoy looking at my site and the works that I’ll be putting in here!

Most of the content for now will be my literary works and artworks that I’ve created in the past few years. Through the course of the semester, I’ll be adding things regarding my initial ideas and processes that will lead up to the final artwork which we will be pitching in front of a panel. I’m not sure if it’ll turn out as nice as I want it to, because the possibilities are endless. I don’t even know where to start!

Wishing good luck to everyone,

Andrea